Arrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

To say I have had enough will be putting it mildly. Frankly, I have just about had enough! I know I moan and whinge about my job and how much I loathe the corporate world and it not being for me and all which is why I started my own business??

I had a big row with my boss this morning which I haven't done in a while. I think I can no longer stomach my displeasure with this job and this whole bureaucratic world. I have just had it and goodness, I was a second away from saying to her: stuff your job and stuff you too! Okay, so i'm not fasting today.

I had a call from a prospective client who wanted to know if we provided a certain service to which as far as I knew, we didnt. I advised the prospect so and what do I know? In the middle of my conversation, someone jumped in and said: of course we do! I felt that small. I apologised to the prospect and advised i'd call him back.

I have had it with this woman thinking she owns the heavens and the earth and just because she's almost old enough to be my mum does not give her the cheek to talk to me anyhow. I am an employee and not her child and I told her so! Everyone revers her! So what, she's a director? So bloody what? Everyone tip toes around her like she's the queen of sheba! Well, I won't! Not today anyway. She knows i'm not stupid and she bloody well knows how many times i've been head hunted so it's not a case of me not been able to find another job! She knows I can throw it all in her face today and she'll be toast! Don't even get me started on her overpaid sidekick! I don't even know if he's meant to be white or red! Bloody overpaid wankers!

Anyway, I gave as much as she did and it she gave in at the end. Now, i'm not proud for been aggresive but there comes a time when; when pushed to a wall, you push back! I have had it with her!

And to cap it all up, I have to go to some rival's 50th Anniversary! Yes, i'm gonna be the only black, young female there again. I don't want to drink or make some side pep talks. I don't want to talk about accounts or the ftse or who's going up or coming down. I don't want to talk about some shitty bank or shitty insurance company. I don't want to talk about who's shagging who. I don't want to talk about regulations! I don't want to talk about how my boss is the most hated in the market. I don't want to drink red wine or eat chips and sausages! I don't want to be here today!

I just might not attend! Stuff it!

10 reasons why you should never get a job: By Steve Pavlina

Going on the fast lane.

okay o. Aren't I meant to be fasting today? I give up!

This is meant to be the begining of my one week fasting and prayer; a time to get closer to my God and get all spiritual and it only took me less than two hours to break that commitment!

I blame it on the hay fever! Yes! I came in to work sniffling and sneezing with itchy eyes. I didn't use my Beconase as I thought it would break my fast o. So I skipped my medication. I got to work; nose feeling all stuffed up and in a second, I decided to make a hot cuppa and that was it.

I was half was through the tea when I exclaimed: Jesu! Mo ti ja awe mi! ( Jesus! I have broken my fast!). How could I have let myself down so? I didn't even have to be tempted o, I decided to fall yakata into temptation all by myself. So much for fasting till 6pm! I couldn't even hold it till 10 am! Imagine that!

And to think that I made some scrumptous meat pies last night o. I still have about 8 and I just did asko to them this morning informing them that they shall have to keep their pastry clothes on and not tempt me into popping one into my mouth. I thought i'd succeeded! I'm so weak!

Okay, i'm gonna act as if I didn't break it and continue as normal. I hope I can do it sha. I mean...i pray I can do it. 6pm, here we come!